I'm gonna go all out on an MC rant for this one. Break down in the beach hut at this point.
"I don't understand why Shuresh even came here. It's like he is here just to mess with me. He gets in my head and the second I start to open up he is mad at me and I don't even ever know what I did wrong. It's not just ruining my experience in the villa but making me question my self worth. I wish I could just ignore him but he says all the right things. I thought there might be something there with Eddie, but I just seem to be a second choice and game on the side for him if Dana decides not to go for him. He's also a dick for saying me almost proposing to Suresh is equal to him flirting with someone for months and cheating on me?? Who tells someone before they propose?? How is that a bad secret to keep!? On top of all this I feel so uncomfortable because my 'best friend' in the villa just keeps trying to make moves on me and is also making moves on Suresh, while also telling me he is not worth my time. I have no one, why am I here.."