What was your best mistake that led to you being a better person?

I had the nightmare again of the break-up.

"Did that happen?"

I woke up made coffee, took care of my kid, and had lunch. Naptime occurred. I was gardening, like I do when my kid takes naps, and I think I just planted a Eugenia species. I saw these eyes and this beautiful face. She was smiling looking at me like a friend, over coffee. I had this realization after these flashes of memory came to me:

"What the fuck!? What?"

I stumbled backwards onto my ass on the hill supporting me. Did I date Katy Perry?

"Naaaaaaaaaah."

When the memories came to me I thought they were delusive, like I created these memories because my marriage isn't as good as it used to be, and I'm feeling unimportant. I started getting freaked out, like I was losing my mind. I tried to contact her, not as a running joke, or a familiar human being that my mind couldn't place. I went to my shrink after explaining it to my hippie friend on a rainy day in his truck parked under a tree after a few doobies:

"Well, shit, if you've got them then they are memories."

Thanks, old man.

I tell my shrink, and while he has a morbid curiosity as to why I think this, he's friendly enough to assume that I'm not losing my goddamn mind. Asks me stuff. I start delving further into the reaches of my elusive memory. He has me test reality. Tells me that the outside influence is internet trolls, and that I need to concentrate on where I'm at.

I go out a few times to the place we met, not first, but second, the second place we met. I have a tea, and stand in the rain waiting for some internet troll, who's never coming. I try to relive the memories from the dream:

"We broke up here, I ran this way into the night, or wait; was it here?"

Nothing concrete in my mind I felt like I was having some sort of event happen. I started getting other memories from other times in my life, so the Neurons and Dendrites were talking to one another trying to ascertain the consolidation of memory. I start getting more memories, and I can't watch her videos anymore. I see her look up from a table in a T.G.I.Friday's I worked at, was that her attendant I brought room service to? Who is the man with the copper-hair with the kind knowing smile and familiar eyes? I thought he was coming on to me, no that's not it. I went back to the restaurant, I think that was the night Ike and his Family were there. I'm sweeping after cleaning up from a big party, and I see this number in my dust-pan. I look up from sweeping a number into my dust-pan where this big group of girls was, there she is: She's looking at me with that look she gives the twinkies in dark star. Her eyes say:

"Yes, please."

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