Finish the school years, go far, far away to college, US, Germany - doesn't matter which college - those places have more colleges than sense.

Reasons to not follow Zimocracray's advice: I'm much much smarter than what my grades reflect due to depression, going "anywere" would just lead to more depression and hopelessness.

Reasons to follow zimocracy's advice: I understand as someone who's gifted you may need (understandly) a more rigerous program to give meaning to your life. No problem, just transfer, - there's a trick to it. Just get in, kill it in a few specific ways and then transfer to the school of your choice. DM me for more detailed answers or free coaching if you want.

Source & why help: I thought I was disconnected untill I found out where I was just wasn't very diverse/tolerant enough of different view points for me to find my peoples. I only had the opportunity due to a bunch of pro-bono coaches/teachers who saw me. Result: in high school I missed 40% of my classes (pretty much lived alone) and still got into a couple of ivy and russell group schools.

Oh, and for the love of God, don't go back.

Like really.