My first true girlfriend. I had a crush on her throughout middle school. Had the chance to be with her. I left for boarding school(HS) and we would work through it. It was hard but when I came back home for the first time on Christmas break, her mom broke it up on Christmas Eve. This was back in 2012. Found out afterwards, she was cheating on me while I was in school. The loneliness absolutely changed me. I’ve been single now for about 6 years now. She was beautiful. Absolutely amazing and her smile just lit the whole room up. I struggle with PTSD and Depression due to being around death so much in the past and I’m working towards finding myself again. I lost myself for a while. I guess I never had the opportunity to truly explain how I felt. But, I want to break that. Be able to move on and meet a woman who’s understands that life is worth living and should be shared through memories and love. I guess I’m over sharing but it’s nice to just explain how you feel. That was my hardest goodbye. Not saying it face to face.