I never want to be satisfied. Many people struggle their whole lives to achieve a sense of self-satisfaction, so my prior statement may sound odd. Let me explain. I love learning new things. If I could go to school forever, then I would do it in a heartbeat.

My parents are two very great, kind, wonderful people. They have my love and respect no matter what. However, they are at the point where they just don't care anymore. Neither of them knows how to work a smartphone, nor want one. They don't have an interest of keeping up with the times and the rapidly changing technologies. My mother uses a computer everyday, yet she refuses to learn how to copy/paste. I really can't comprehend why. If they would take the time to learn these things, they would make their lives a whole lot easier. My dad wouldn't have to pull over and whip out an Atlas to figure out where the hell he is going, and I wouldn't have to watch my mom go to msn.com to search google to search Facebook.

This absolutely terrifies me. Maybe it has to do with aging, and I totally get that. On the other hand, I had a 70 year old physics professor who absolutely loved learning new things. She doesn't cower from change, she embraces it. That is the type of person I want to be.

If there ever comes a day where I no longer yearn for new information/knowledge, then I think my sense of self is dead. I'm horrified by the thought that one day I'll stop giving a shit. Maybe its because I'm still young and the world hasn't beaten me to my knees yet, or maybe it eventually happens to everybody. I don't fuckin' know. /rant

I love who I am, but I want to look back a year from now and love the changes in me as well. I want to learn something new everyday and to make sure the desire for self-improvement never ceases. My belief is that the idea of satisfaction will hinder me from wanting more.