What is your thoughts about INFJ reward system?

I believe I am an INFJ. I'm only 17 years old, and I don't know very much about MBTI in general. But, all I know is that I have always felt different from the people around me. Even though I have exercised, engaged in social ancivities, doing stuff I didn't want to do, and having anxiety about maintaining my "cool" it wasn't enough. It is not fulfilling to search for happiness from things that can't make you happy. What makes me happy is actually when I am distracted from my thoughts. Because when I begin to think deep, I almost always overthink about every single thing. And how much I try, I have not ever been able to "fit" in with people around me, even though I have tried my hardest. That's why I want to find out about INFJ. I don't know much about the type, but if there are some INFJs who struggle with something like what I wrote, there has to be something going on. I have tried to find out which type my mother is. She is an Esfp, and it makes sense since she is all about living in the moment, enjoying stuff here and now, and her cognitive functions is just the right fit. I just don't know what I need to do to be fulfilled. I try everything, but it just doesn't seem to work. I don't think a relationship can fulfill me since I have very high expectations for other people. I need to have lower expectations of them. Maybe that is my problem. But, like I said, I need to figure this out. I don't even know if I'm an INFJ, or if MBTI in general has many flaws, but I want to figure this out anyway.

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