Say any word 25 times and realise it starts to make no sense, look at your hands for a long time without closing them. You realise they're this weird thing just as odd as a spider being able to move every single part of its body or something.

Also the thing, thst absolutely no one apart from one guy, slighty understanding what I mean has understood in my whole life.

The fact that everything exists, try to imagine the universe in a box, and then try to think of what was there before it existed. Now you're probably either seeing black or white. But it makes me laugh thinking about how it's just there in the first place, I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT WELL ENOUGH TO GET MY POINT ACROSS HeCC, it's like I'm amazed something exists, because I can't imagine everything being able to be made from nothing because there's nothing to make something. I'm not sure why it makes me laugh until I can't grasp the concept anymore. Some extra terrestrial being is stopping me from finding the sauce of the universe. Sometimes I can explain it, sometimes I can't. I really hope there's someone on the planet that can relate ;-; I just barely scratched the idea and got a sinking feeling in my chest then forgot about it, I 100 percent sound crazy but I'm gonna post anyway In case there's an alien from area 51 that understands me.

random nice smart person please explain this phenomenon my brain is going through, probably means I'm small brain but that's ok.

Its most likely the same mindset as people who tried to figure it out. But Im probably just somehow slow and acting like a person from a few decades ago using the latest phone or something like the thing that would get the "yeah. You didn't know?" kind of response.

The main thing is that I can't think about it for long before being forced to forget it after laughing. Completely don't wanna post this but I'm not gonna haunt myself as a ghost because I have unfinished business with myself. Is it a paradox? Did I overshoot a concept or something?