Tight.

I have like three big things I need to get done that are hanging over my head. Never got my stimulus check, doubt I'll get the other one (that probably won't end up happening).

Foolishly I bought two scratch offs today. I don't know why. I get the itch every now and again but after I lose I don't do it for awhile. When I lose I pretend that I'm throwing a bill in the bin because that's what I'm doing.

So much of our lives revolve around money and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of talking about it, I'm tired of worrying about it... there's so much hurt and family drama surrounding it. I'm just tired of it.

I really wish... I had a couple million dollars. I would seriously just keep to myself in my own place, do what I want to do, and not bother anybody. How I wish this would happen.