I can tell you why from my perspective. For one, my family is dead so there are no Christmas or Thanksgiving dinners. My wife is very judgmental and rides my case about everything, and dealing with that for over a decade, I find enjoyment in nothing. I tried to kill myself once at Disney World to give you an idea of the mindset. I wasn't trying to be dramatic, I just didn't want to be there and the realization that Disney World, the happiest place on earth, wasn't fun made me feel pretty nihilistic. Also for me there is an element of regret and disillusionment. I did everything "right" - graduated from the #1 high school in the US, got a bachelors and then a masters degree. I have a great job but the threat of being fired has loomed over my head for a decade, watching half my associates being fired for folks with H1B visas. My wife and I together have $370K in student loans (she's a vet). We may as well have just gotten jobs at Taco Bell and worked our way up, because paying $2418 in loans a month leaves us very little for doing anything fun. We bought a condo in 2007 and now it is worth half of what we paid, so we lose $600 a month renting it out. So every month we start over $3000 in the hole before our first paycheck comes. If one of us lost our jobs, it would be game over, therefore we cannot move and must accept abuse from our employers, like frequent 24 hour shifts for me. My wife was offered a job in a great city, but I can't find a job there so we're probably stuck in a city I hate. I'll never have enough money to retire. I worry constantly about one of us getting sick and losing our job and not being able to cover our health care. I realize none of this is uncommon. Another reason is the people around me. I have done everything in my power to be kind, respectful, and helpful to everyone I've encountered in life. Then I look at Trump and realize the path to success is to lie, cheat, bully, break your promises, and blame everyone else for your actions. If that is our standard of excellence, it makes me feel like I've wasted my entire life caring about animals or the homeless, turning off my lights, not wasting water, all the things I was taught as a child. So that's it, really - I did all the things I was told to do growing up, but it didn't really lead to anything but massive debt and disappointment. At 36, most of my friends are dead from accidents or drug overdoses, and my remaining best friend no longer talks to me. And one of the things that has hit me hardest is watching our pets die or get old. Really, the idea of having no control over my life and working at an unsustainable pace until I can no longer work in IT because I'm "too old" and most likely getting divorced at some point and eventually end up shitting and pissing myself in a nursing home (if im lucky) while everyone I've ever known is dead, left speaking only with nurses who try to be professional but actually despise us, who have to go home and drink to get images of me out of their heads. I really fail to see the point of being miserable for another 40-50 years. I'd honestly rather be dead or in prison. Sorry for being so emo but thought it would give you some ideas. I think of killing myself every day by driving into a telephone pole. My wife would get a huge payday and find more enjoyment with that money than she'd ever get from me. NO KIDS THANK GOD!