No it's fine. He died after doing heroin (for the first time that night).

He had left college to go to rehab for alcohol. Aside from alcohol he was doing other drugs but never heroin. (Ironic part - he had shoulder surgery 3 times & refused to go home with pain meds after - said people got addicted to pain meds) Anyway, he left. Got sober. Graduated from his program & was living in a rented room that he paid for by working 6 days a week doing hard outdoor labor. He had turned things around.

Then he got depressed. Said where he was living (3 states away) he was alone & didn't have friends or anything to do. He wanted to come home for the summer before returning to college for senior year. His parents said no, which was what they were instructed to do (they were told his home & his friends could be a trigger). So that last week he was depressed, alone. He worked all week, Friday he left work, picked up some alcohol. He texted me he was drinking & I panicked - he hadn't drank for months & now he was forgetting his tolerance. Then he texted me he was on heroin - I got angry, my biggest regret. I told him to stop & he said no, he was just doing it for that night. And... he was right. He died that night. Or actually, the investigators say he died some time overnight. They found cocaine in his room too. Something snapped that night & his demons flooded his mind again. It was the first time it happened when we weren't physically together & I could help.

I miss him everyday. I know a lot of people will see that he died of a drug overdose & have their own personal stigmas & feelings towards it. (Well maybe not people on Reddit, in new to the site but everyone seems pretty cool on here!) But, despite his mistakes & his battles he was my best friend. He was a hockey player, a son, he became an uncle after he passed, he was a friend to so many that miss him so much. He battled terrible things in his head & I believe he relapsed that night & thought back to his old ways of his high tolerance & always saying "I'll never die, no matter what I do I just don't" (a stupid as all hell thought process) & that mixed with the (probably laced) heroin just killed him.

Sorry for the long response - I just always feel like I have to explain to people who he was so they don't focus on how he left.