I married the man that raped me. I was a virgin and waiting until marriage. We were dating at the time and had been dating on and off for two years prior(no intention of marrying). I remember the entire time I was saying no and crying. He twisted it around and made it out to be my fault. I had very low self esteem. He played on my vulnerabilities and easily manipulated me. Why did I marry him.... Perhaps I was somewhere delusional for awhile. At some point I really cared for him and trusted him. Part of it was due to my religious beliefs, which he also used against me.. We were married for 4 years and ever day I suffered emotional abuse - at times physical and sexual abuse. He threatened to kill me or himself if I left him. His sister hated me and physically attacked me twice and attempted to run me off the road. I could go on and on about my real life lifetime movie life but nevertheless, I finally up and left one day. One thing I also have never told anyone is that towards the end, before I left, he told him his sister (the one who hated me) had molested him as a child.