As cliche as this is, it was probably my ex.

I grew up with pretty big abandonment issues with people always leaving in my life suddenly whether it was my parents or what not.

It made me have attachment and trust issues. I always thought something was wrong with me and honestly even to this day I still have hard time connecting with people.

I understand people like I understand different subjects at school But I have hard time connecting with them like human beings. It's like having asperger's without the powers of high functioning autism.

No one really knew about this because I seemed extremely social, well-adjusted, and pretty damn successful at life.

Only person I ended up opening up to about these issues was my ex. It took me a solid 2 years of dating her before I ended up talking about these things with her. And to her, I really did give everything that I had and for the first time I felt like I really connected with a human being.

It was the year when I finally decided to ask her hand in marriage when she disappeared. Without an actual good bye or such.

She was just gone. As dramatic as this sounds, the thought that really came to my head was, "just like everyone else I cared about."

With this one, I really couldn't shake that something really was wrong with me. I never really tackled that issue since I never could figure out for myself what the answer was. Because of that, because of this dwelling toxic, I think I ended up hurting a lot of people I didn't mean to hurt. And they didn't deserve that.

Some of those girls I hurt I feel like all I did is spread misery around the world. Hopefully they won't be as dumb as me and carry on the tradition.

TL;DR: Hug your kids more. Say good bye if you're leaving. Everyone will feel better with a better farewell.