My dad. Every time I see him I'm filled with love and happiness but our past relationship is not good, partly due to my own choices and his. I keep my guard up around him now and we don't have the same connection we had when I was a kid (I'm 33 now). I love him but part of me is still angry about our sketchy past. It's me who has the problem letting it go and moving on not him. He worked hard his whole life to support us and did an amazing job but he was kind of strict and well... He died and was revived shortly after but his brain don't work right anymore, he is slow and thinks very slow now and he is very sick, won't last another 10 years probably. Easy conversations are hard for him now and make him even sicker if he gets stressed. I have so much I want to say to him but in his current state he wouldn't comprehend it, so sad. It is a daily struggle of mine and it tears me up inside. I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do. Sorry for venting on your thread Op. Man that felt good to say/get off of my chest!