What's something your getting better at?

Anger. I'm not really an angry person but I do have a temper. It all kind came out after doing a two year Meisner acting course about three years ago; this acting course really exacerbated all my inner stuff. To be honest, the tutor wasn't the healthiest of tutors, he was a real prick, a genius, but a narcissistic mind fucker. To be honest though, I feel sorry for the guy.

Anyways, it bought out all this stuff that you know I thought I had dealt with, and maybe I had, but out it came anyway, whatever, sometimes in life maybe you have to learn lessons twice or thrice, I don't know.

So here I am late 2018 and I'm getting better, I'm letting shit go quicker, I'm being mindful, I just don't need that noise. I still mess up a bit but I'm getting better at it.

It's also about choosing good people and good circumstances, knowing if a situation or a person is good for you and if not, removing yourself, letting things go, letting people go. I've cut lots of people out.

My main issue is probably in the intellectual sphere; I dislike taking sides on topics because I like to see all angles, I get incredibly frustrated when people can't do this. I've realised hey, that's because I like intellectual play and maybe these people don't have the faculties to think this way—I mean it's not like Im always Buddha-like, I too can feel close to a subject but I push myself to go at it from both sides.

I mean If someone is being an arrogant troll I do like to put them in their place but only if know what I'm saying is factually correct and I can back it up. If I can't back it up, I won't engage.

But it's more with family and friends, I've just finally realised I don't need to make a point, I just don't care and it sucks because on some level I can't connect with my family and some friends, and they'll never know me for me. But that's ok, I'll find people who can intellectually see things from all angles and those peeps are my tribe, that's who I can ponder with and try and learn more about life with.

So yeah keeping that anger in check, and exercise helps big time I've dropped tonnes of weight and am channelling whatever life frustrations I have into the gym and the heavy bag again and I'm feeling better and better.

Life's good.

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