When my mom, sister and dad got sick with cancer. Mom and sister passed on, I take care of my dad. Tears me up pretty bad at times. He's at end of life, and having to take of him is brutal. The worst part is he's embarrassed by it. He tells me every day he's sorry to be a burden on me, that he's sorry that he has to "bother me", that I "wait on him hand and foot." He's ashamed of being sick, and weak, and he can't do anything about it. Knowing he worked hard his whole life to take care of, to watch him lose all 3 of his siblings (2 to cancer), his parents, most of his friends, as well as his wife of 46 years (13 years ago now), and his daughter just 15 months ago, it's killing me. Nobody should have to live through so much misery and pain, for a man who was so strong and able his whole life, that's doubly hard. Doesn't help I was close with my sister. We have two older siblings who are a good jump in age above us, moved out when I was really young, and I miss her every damn day. It hurts about my mom, but a lot less these days. Hell I'm tearing up writing this. It's hard man. Tell the ones you love that you love them every damn day. Even if they're not your family. Make it weird it until it isn't. Tell those people you love them. Every day. Tell your pets, your friends, hell tell your plants. Don't let those moments go by, you don't know when you'll get the chance to do so again.
I meant to post something funny like, "pulling a nose hair," but now I'm sitting here crying at my keyboard. Cancer sucks man. What a bunch of bullshit.