The bad: had a vivid dream that I started drinking wine last night. Woke up panicked in the middle of the night. Dealing with feelings about trauma, and feel overwhelmed. Realizing how deep it goes. Realizing some of my relationships are very one sided, and I've ignored a lot of things for a long time, and that feels lonely man. Also hormonal so everything is more dramatic than it needs to be right now.

The good: career is going well, and I'm feeling secure in my work environment. I am thinking about strategies to give up smoking cigarettes soon. I'm down to half a pack a day.

The future: not sure. Taking it step by step. Joined the gym and trying to reconnect with some old hobbies (weight lifting). Eating very healthy and consciously. Have a loose financial plan drawn up for my savings.