MXE

My dealer was starting to get some more serious drugs in, and when they didn't sell, he started selling them as drugs that they weren't.

He sold me some MXE (like ketamine, a horse tranq) under the pretense that it was MDMA. I was young, didn't know about drug testing. I had never seen MDMA before, and always thought it was a white looking powder (it's not!).

I decided to take it over the weekend, while my parents were out of town. I had researched proper MDMA doses, and decided on 100mg. I took it on a friday night around 6pm.

Holy Shit.

At first I felt really floaty and super awesome. Pretty relaxed and like I was floating on top of my bed. It started getting more intense, so I put some music on to relax. Of course that didn't work, and I started to freak out. I tried to get up to call someone to come over, because I was having really bad anxiety.

Apparently 100mg of MXE is enough for someone of a small stature and low tolerance such as myself to "k-hole".

I flipped the fuck out, I felt like my body was being stretched 300 different ways at once. I remember at some point in time i was trying to crawl down the stairs, and I though that I had melted into a puddle of flesh, and I was going to stay that way forever.

I detatched from reality for an hour or so, and nothing made sense. I had been transported into a world where everything was bright, except around me. No matter where I walked, it became depressed and dark. I would see scary little demon creatures on the skirt of my vision. I was trying so hard to get somewhere else, but I didn't have a body. I was being strung different ways.

I tried to remember what it was like before MXE, but I couldn't, I thought I was going to be stuck in my trip forever. I didn't even remember that I had taken a drug to get this way, and it didn't matter because I don't think I would have known what that even meant.

Eventually it felt like the black part of the world was rising up around me and everything started to spin. I felt like I was being flushed down a toilet portal to hell.

I don't really know what happened after that, I thought I was dead, and stuck floating in nothing forever. The stretchy feeling was still there.

Eventually I came out of that, and was confused as fuck. It took me a little while to figure out where I was (my house).

I could have killed my EX dealer after that, but a month later he overdosed on MXE and passed.

0/10 would not suggest. I now have a healthy respect for drugs and TEST EVERYTHING.