What's your biggest regret in life so far?

Taking what I thought to be "super strong LSD" in high school. It tasted sour and turned out to be a drug called DOB. I had an awful, nightmare of a trip that lasted just about 24 hours if not longer. I experienced all the ego death nonsense you read about. It fucked me up for months and brought out a once dormant anxiety disorder. I still had visuals for years after to the point where I couldn't even sleep at night without seeing these giant spiders lowering down from the ceiling whenever I shut the lights off. I couldn't sit in a classroom and concentrate because the patters on the carpet would move and morph.

I had never felt anxiety before taking that drug and I now have a fairly serious anxiety disorder that's caused me to fuck up every thing I've ever attempted in my life. I've ruined countless relationships and friendships because of this as well as failed at everything I've ever attempted professionally.

I knew back then that I woke up a different person than who I was before taking that drug. The visual problems have subsided completely but the psychological trauma seems to linger on forever. So much time has passed that I hardly think about that incident but deep down I know something awful changed in me that day and the older parts of me that were capable of living life with joy are dead.

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