What's your current reason for being unhappy?

College. Live in dorms. Know a lot of people on campus but no one invites me to anything so generally just assume that not necessarily liked enough for it. No roommate so generally in my room alone.

On top of that my best friend still talks to my most recent ex. Its generally assumed by our group of friends that he also had a crush on her despite his denial. If I ever see her randomly, her first reaction is pretty much to text him. I don't want to tell him what to do but at the same time I can't help feeling like he's going behind my back in a way. Additionally the only other girl who I ever consider to have been with is a different best friend's cousin. I generally have to see her whenever I hang out at my friends house. She refuses to talk to me but will talk to anyone else in our group which makes for really awkward hang outs. She also is constantly bringing her new boyfriend around to stir up drama.

My dream job is a career that's nearly impossible to get into, acting in major movies. My back up career, mechanical engineering, is interesting boring as all fuck.

I'm generally considered good looking, fit, and funny. I don't feel like that. I just notice my acne scars, the parts of muscles that aren't as developed as they should be, or when my jokes don't land.

I generally feel as if I'm disappointing my parents. I know it's not true, that they love me with all their hearts, that they support me through everything. But every wrong move I make I just feel it. I just never feel as though I can do right by them.

Most people see me as confident and generally just an outgoing person who's always happy and making jokes. In reality, when I get back to my room I'm constantly punching things, staring at the floor, or generally just feeling bad and doing nothing, but without the ability to cry, with the only release of being able to cry is when I have to tell my Dad that I've disappointed him again.

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