Had to leave a discord server of friends I had made in high school a couple weeks back. Was talking about something stupid before a friend broke out that they were sick of my behaviour for the past couple months.

Said I was making people on the server uncomfortable, they didn't feel the nicknames I had were appropriate post school (I turned 19 earlier this year so this group age range was from 15 to 18 since I was the oldest at the time), have an aversion to testing different things or keeping my facts straight and my stupid history of referring to historical events during gameplay to describe the situation (a server member felt insulted and uncomfortable as it related to their nationality). A week later and it boiled down to a private meeting after it came out.

I was sad and pissed off at myself. I was sad I made my friends uncomfortable and mad that I didn't see what I was doing all that time was wrong.

They made a choice and so I respected it. I left my friends. I'm such an asshole. At least now I know I am and what I must do to fit the proper definition of a friend once again.