received out of context diagnoses along with a bunch of bogus diagnoses as a kid & therefore ignored all, recently coming into “understanding” my generalized anxiety disorder/how deep it runs.
5am - 6am: I wake up, lay in bed and attempt to not grab my phone or get up until I’ve grounded my breathing & am in a state of feeling excited to have my day rather than an animalistic state of readiness. First thing I usually want to do is start drinking water, then begin getting to my stretches. I like to stretch to music that fits the context for me at the time. Right now it’s usually Joni Mitchell or Kamasi Washington.
7am - 10/11am (depending on how early I woke up): I go sit out in front of the pool and meditate in the sun. This is the point where I’ve usually reminded myself that my anxiety is crafty, and that as long as I know that I should be fine (to prevent me from worrying about the anxiety creeping up, which whaddyaknow becomes anxiety lol). First meditative state is purely for breathing and mindfulness, followed by an organizing of thoughts in meditation- usually taking notes of important things for the day or good ideas I may get so that I don’t get too distracted from the goal. I get really tangled up in the worry of forgetting good information.
12am - 13:00: Eating my first meal. Through trial and error I’ve arrived at a high fat, high protein breakfast (essentially my diet overall). We feel energized and ready for the day
13:00 - 16:00: Either working on a project, brainstorming ideas, or handling meetings.
16:00 - 17:00: Eating my second meal. If I’m feeling tired/it’s been an exceptionally leisurely day (my work will have me watching a lot of movies sometimes), I might have a little dessert afterwards.
17:00 - 19:00: Continuing work. All of this is based on the day, so some days I have less work to do and have the tendency to get anxious about not knowing what to do next. On a good day I remember to meditate.
19:00 - 20:00: My last meal, though I have to try not to beat myself up about eating again during social events. That’s just more anxiety
20:30: If I haven’t had to go to any kind of event, I try to cut the blue light out around now (though I fail frequently. we’ll get there) and start winding down. In the future I want to start using this time for meditation, but I often forget.
22:30: On a good day I’m in bed (once again if no activities that need to be done)
(Bonus) 1:30am: Im on reddit or playing Pokémon. :P