Worst?

I was really depressed when I was 16,lonely too. Met a guy online, 24 or something, and he was incredibly sweet. Called me each day and we talked for hours. Promised me all sorts of great things in live. Then we decided to meet up.

He wasn't like his profile like all. His personality was different than on the phone, he looked different from the pictures I've got, he told me he actually had a boyfriend but was planning to break up soon. I was super uncomfortable. My self esteem and self worth was subzero back then, so he managed to coerce me into bottoming for him. Didn't really want to but he I felt intimidated. Told me to lie on my back, legs up, so I couldn't move away as easily if it hurt. Didn't help much that he was used.

Was convinced I was a bottom until that moment, I'd still love to but I'm still unable to relax so I've basically been exclusively a top since then.

I broke off all contact after, bothered me for a long time. Happened to meet his boyfriend (then ex) by accident years later. He told me that the guy is in prison now for threatening him and stalking, and that he was screwing around with multiple guys all the time.

Other than not bottoming I'm all over it now. Used to flinch when people touched me and had nightmares, but it's now all good. Spend a long time thinking it was my fault for not walking away and that I was an idiot for making such a big deal out of it.