When I was 15, I was put in a psych ward and it was my last day there and I had to talk to the head doctor. He told me that I was just “embarrassed” and that I shouldn’t have said I wanted to kill myself cause I was “embarrassed”... I had lost a good friend cause her and I were messing around durning an assembly and we go in trouble, but she blamed me for most of it and ignored me for mainly the rest of the year or so...

I was then hospitalized when I was 17 again, and durning a group meeting, this one tech nurse was sitting in the room and I have a lot of anxiety so when I would talk, I always hid behind my folder and i never meant to and the psychologist understood that. The tech nurse, not so much... at the end of class, we all some how got on the topic of tasers, and she looks at me and goes “I would taser you” and I’m like “the fuck for?” And she goes “cause you always hold your folder up to your mouth” and I’m like “what the fuck? That’s not a reason” and she was serious about it, she wasn’t joking... she might’ve but she was like one of those nurse techs that was a total bitch to everyone