When did you realize you were depressed?

I've probably had depression since I was 10. I might have had some mental issues before for reasons I'm not going to discuss, but from what I remember I had a good childhood. In grade 5, long story short, my teacher emotionally ruined me, hard to explain really. But I was still 10 years old and I still had friends, so things weren't all that bad. In middle school I lost most of my friends for various reasons, like them moving or something. I started to become less, and less social. I spent most of my time playing video games. I think I truly accepted/realized I had depression in high school, when I skipped more classes than I attended. Completely ruined my life. Failed every single grade 9 class because I was almost never there. Of course I had the talks with my councilor and shit like that, but it only got worse. No one actually understood I had depression, they all thought I either had no motivation or was lazy. By grade 11, I had no friends. Not a single friend. To be honest, the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I was fortunate enough to self teach myself programming before I got depression. So at least I'm not completely useless. Being overly ambitious and clinically depressed is a terrible combination.

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