When you start telling yourself that those small bites you took are enough to hold you over. When you start trying to replace meals with water, drinks, small snacks, vapes, cigs, anything really. When you look at the cabinets kinda wanting something but inevitably deciding you can hold out a little longer. When you can’t force yourself to eat regular portions anymore because you feel full off of a few bites. I am still struggling with an eating disorder. It’s sounds stupid but all it takes is one thing to push you over the edge. I was already struggling with severe self image issues and consistently thought about losing weight even though I was a healthy weight. All it took was my bfs baby mom to harass me and humiliate me ab my looks and weight something in me to snapped. I ate less right off the bat solely because I was depressed and even more self conscious than I had ever been, before I knew it in the midst of the worst depression I’ve had since high school, an eating disorder had been created and was in full swing. I barely ate, replaced most meals with my vape and small snacks. I let it keep spiraling because I liked the results until I didn’t. But by the time I started noticing physically how much weight I had lost and how painfully thin I was, I was in too deep and couldn’t fix it myself. I had to go to a doctor and we started a plan. I’m barely coming back but I never want to be that way again.