To preface: I've had depression for as long as I can remember, diagnosed with CPTSD, struggle with suicide ideation daily and have attempted suicide multiple times.

It ultimately is true. Suicide is indeed a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If any of my suicide attempts had been successful, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to work through any of my mental health issues nor learn proper coping mechanisms. I wouldn't have any of the happy memories that have happened between my extreme lows nor would I have been able to surprise myself by drastically improving if I had been successful in killing myself.

My depression isn't gone. Most days, I have to tell myself that its not worth killing myself but I now have the tools to work through it myself. But I've put myself out there to look for help, as hard as it fucking was.

Its hard but everyone deserves to be supported through this shitty ailment. Its hell to survive alone but, I promise, you're not as alone as you think you are.