Where did you start and where are you now?

I think it was like Sophomore year of high school I started mooching off my friends once in a while when they smoked weed. It took me a long time to ever feel it, but when I did I was pretty hooked. I also messed around with some dumb stuff like DXM and nutmeg because I was a kid, but in retrospect I should have been able to tell from how intrigued I was by the shitty highs I got off things like that that drugs were going to be a big theme in my life.

When I got my own ways to get weed near the end of high school I sort of molded myself into a stoner. I sort of hated myself at the time and consciously felt like I wanted to personify the stoner/burnout identity because I didn't see anything for me the way my life was going so I treated it with being high constantly, which I was pretty much throughout senior year of high school, the summer after, and part of college.

Once I got my hands on harder stuff the summer after high school I just sort of cannonballed into it. Psychedelics, opiates, benzos, lots of ecstasy, RCs, MXE, and whatever else I could get my hands on for about 6 months to a year. It's so weird what a period of uninhibited drug abuse will do to you because some of those experiences completely changed me as a person and made me happy with who I am, and some of them nearly ruined my life or fucked up my brain or put me in real danger. Drugs are like that.

I'm sure most of us know you can't sustain that lifestyle for very long, or at least it's not compatible with the things I was trying to do like go to college, so I tapered off the drug frenzy after the summer ended and I wanted to remember how to do arithmetic and peoples' last names.

At college I got introduced to stimulants which I'd never before used and I had about a full year where I was abusing them regularly, they kicked my ass hard and it really taught me that it's a bad idea for me to keep drugs around because with my self-control they won't be around for very long.

Now I take a Ritalin once in a while to study and maybe once every few months I'll drop acid or roll for a concert or something but in general I'm kind of doing a sober self-improvement thing and doing my best to appreciate being sober. I still smoke cigarettes 24/7 and that's just my addictive nature coming through but I can at least balance the life and job I want to have right now with smoking something society accepts.

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