It used to be my girlfriend, but now it's not, as she stopped really giving a flying fuck about my own interests, I can't really notice her own interests if she seriously doesn't give a shit about mine. Last summer she kind of betrayed me, when we weren't together. She knows what she did to me, now it's summer again, the relationship was pretty much fine, but since summer begins obviously everything starts being even more shit, no surprise from my PoV, she gives even less shits about me any my own interests now. She ignores me MOST of the day, the relationship is basically falling apart. I have nobody who brings out the best in me anymore, I'm extremely suicidal for a lot of time already, but she probably doesn't give a shit about that either(she knows that). Her promises aren't being held true. But who am I to change her own interests? She's going to dump me anyways :P, I know this isn't the right answer for such a thread but I'm just feeling bad so I have to tell somebody :D. She has my reddit username but she won't bother checking probably, if she will she wouldn't give a shit about that. I used to be happy, now I'm not. I'm feeling bad every day and nobody cares about that, I started drinking A LOT lately which is kind of the only thing that sets my mind off of everything, you know, gotta have something for that... I'm feeling completely worthless every single damn day, and nobody makes me feel worth ANYTHING, but I have no courage to kill myself. At some point I might have it, but I doubt it'll be anytime soon. But it will happen some day. I'm crying as I am writing this comment. I'm all alone every day, how else can I feel? I need someone.