I tried once. I was injured with a separated shoulder last year so I couldn’t AP with the junior team anymore. It was really hard but I told my mom that this month I’ve been the happiest and that maybe it’s easier for me to pursue my compsci career without hockey in the way. I’d still go to the gym and keep fit just no hockey for half my time. She doesn’t make the decisions so she just told my dad. Who promptly yelled at me about how lucky I am to be alive in this family and that I’m gonna need a job and he’s not gonna support me financially anymore. I later realized that hockey is better for me, but every time I think of a problem, say I think I should go only 2 times a week cause the other AP’s only go once, he gets mad at me again and asks if I even want to play hockey or how I should go play A or something like that. He never wonders where my problems are coming from only that he’s right and I shouldn’t have them.