who’s that person that you wonder if they still think about you? what’s your story with them?

I met this boy on an online dating site. We messaged back & forth then we texted all day everyday then we met. <I>On a side note: i have bipolar 2 & BPD but at that time I didn’t know it. I also had been off of my depression & anxiety medication for about a month. </I> He & I were so much alike. He suffers from depression & because of it I felt that we had this special bond between us. One day he didn’t text me so I though.... “He doesn’t like me anymore. He’s gonna ghost me....” I drove myself crazy overthinking & catastrophizing this small insignificant texting issue. Due to my fear of abandonment (BPD symptom) I impulsively decided to cut of communication with him before he abandons me. So I text him... “I’m too old & tired to play games.. We should go our separate ways... it was nice while it lasted... yaddah yaddah...” then I realized that I didn’t want him out of my life. I just made a huge mistake so I tried apologizing to him but he said he no longer wanted to see or talk to me again. I thought that because we were both depressed that he would be able to sympathize & forgive me but he didn’t. After about 2 months I reached out to him & to my delight he replied & we were back to texting all day everyday. He’d say things like... “I’m happy you’re in my life.” “In all my life I never met anyone I could relate to as much as I do with you.” So in my head we were back to how things were. Wrong! One day he tells me that he’s creating a Tinder account because he what’s to find someone. I was devastated. Then one day he texts me that he was bummed & I asked why & he said that he went to meet a girl from Tinder & that she ghosted him. My heart broke so I told him that I still had feeling for him & he said... “I can’t control what you feel but we are just friends.” After that our “friendship” went to shit. The last time he ever text me he said... “Don’t ever contact me ever. Bye.” Not long after all this I went back to seeing a psychiatrist, getting back on medications & was told I have Bipolar 2 & BPD. If I would’ve know this sooner I wouldn’t have ruined things. My heart is still broken & I’m trying to rebuild myself. I miss him & I think about him everyday. He has a girlfriend now. I wonder if I still cross his mind... probably not.

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