Probably my "ex." She was cheating and still tried to play it off like she didn't. Lied to me and about me to other people, tried to manipulate me every chance she got, and basically wasted my time. Generally an all around selfish and terrible person. I tried to be there for her for all her personal "traumas" (even though the more she spoke, the more you realized she didn't have a clue about actual hardship in this world,) but she turned around and did some awful stuff towards me instead. Nowadays I don't trust anyone, it's made me bitter, and I'm apathetic about pretty much everything.

Around the same time, there was this guy I once knew in the same field of work as me. We were going to do a project together, and I thought he was an okay guy. Turned out he had an ego the size of Texas, and he talked shit about anyone he came in any sort of contact with. He fucked up on his end, and got outbid on the project by someone else he screwed over in the past, and everything basically crashed and burned. Afterwards he snapped and went off on a bunch of people, started calling me all sorts of shit because he was angry and needed someone to take it out on, made up a bunch of stuff about me and my supposed work habits, and acted like he was better than me in every way (which is a total joke.) Even had his psycho manager telling other people not to hire me, and overall tried to hurt me financially. Stuff like that made me not want to work anymore, because I used to enjoy my field, but experiencing this shit made my blood boil.

That one/two punch around the same period, combined with my dad (who I could write an entire book on how awful he was,) has shaped me into a guy who just sees the worst in everyone. I basically live a completely solitary life, and I'm wasting my talents/skills. I see these assholes do rotten shit and get everything they want afterwards, it makes me not want to try and be a good person, because trying to be decent has gotten me nothing but grief.