It bites you and doesn’t let go until you die (metaphorically! geesh). The person seeking enlightenment is the very person that is incapable of finding it, because they are caught in the wrong paradigm.

It's literal death. The person seeking enlightenment is the very thing that dies, as an idea. The body, personality, habits and conditioning all still function and dance, but the tension to hold any of it as permanent is absent

What is your experience now, in this eternal moment?

There is no experience. There is writing, then reading, maybe contemplation, then silence and then whatever the next activity appears to be

The watching of this remains consistent