I don't know if you will read this but you really helped me with your comment.

Same beginning as yours, met her in College, quickly became best Friends, fell for her.

Except that at around christmas she told me that she really really likes this other Guy in our friend group.

I was of course devastated but told her she should Tell him, because it was pretty obvious that he likes her too...

The next month was hell, I could not stand seeing them so I didn't went to my courses, so I wouldnt have to see them beeing all "fresh in Love". I hated her for doing this to me, and I was a little passive aggressive bitch to her. Didn't Text her Back, or only short answers, this was pretty unusual because we are texting pretty much non stoppen every day, from waking up til going to bed.

In December I got a pretty big back pay, so I did what I wanted to do.

Chill in my room and smoke Weed all day every day, just numbing my pain.

After all while I thought about how I will react to the Situation Long Term, do I really want to throw away this friendship just because she didn't feel the same? After all while the pain went away and I realized the same things as you.

I can't force her to love me. But do I REALLY Love her?

I never met a girl where I could Joke around like with her, I never met a girl with which I could Talk about certain topics Like with her. But could I See myself in a relationship with her?

No, I don't really think we are compatible at this Level. I realized this after I saw her with our other friend.

She is very happy and they fit nicely together.

And since then I am happy for her too :)

I think our friendship even improved from this and I learned so much about releationships with the other gender from her, because I was a very antisocial guy before who thought women are pretty alien. Spoiler: We are pretty much the same.

Next week we will catch up together on our favorite show :)

Thanks for reminding me that I made the right decisions.