sorry fella, same boat, ive literally just arranged my own funeral, unattended direct cremation as there isnt a single sodding person on this planet who gives a fuck. ive ordered a considerable party bag of asdorted narcotics off the dark web including a few ive never tried before eith the mainstay being morphine, so this suicide could actually turn into a 7 day bender, but the end result will be the same, i'm going to tidy up a few of my affairs, send money to people who i know are struggling to keep it out of the fucking wifes hands, then thats it, a party at my computer, until i can party no more, and if its too painful there will be a noose hanging from the ceiling to finish the job quickly if i can still walk.