Will I get arrested by my PO for having fresh tracks and burns even if I'm clean?

Stop addressing the obvious problems and start focusing on the deeper, embedded problems within yourself.

To answer your question: maybe. Self harm is enough of a suicidal ideation to warrant a PO possibly remanding you for a mental health evaluation if it's inside your conditions of release (protip: it probably is).

To give you some insight into who I am, I'm a dude who focuses a lot of my energy and education into narcotics crime. Which means I love arresting dope dealers. But I hate arresting dope users. My Dad is a heroin addict, my mother is a former heroin addict who's been clean for awhile. Uncles, aunts, all mixed up with heroin in some way shape or form, so naturally I became a Cop and I fuck up dealers because I have some repressed childhood issues and this is a good outlet. THAT BEING SAID, I try to give some heart-to-heart talks with users here and there when they're willing to listen, and if you are, thanks for listening.

Addiction is nothing more than suppressing some sort of emotion with an external means. I smoke, I smoke because it relaxes me, it relaxes me because I get stressed, I get stressed because of work and bills and stuff, I use smoking as a coping mechanism because it's easy to do that versus just being a resilient person. You use(d) heroin. You use heroin for a specific reason. You use heroin as a coping mechanism for something in your life that either overwhelms or intimidates you. Find what that is, and address it through proper means (counseling, therapy, legal medication, etc). I'd say 95% of the drug addicts I come across in my line of work are either child molestation victims, rape victims, come from abusive relationships, abusive childhoods, grew up with zero stability in their childhood and now do not know how to form stability in their adulthood, etc. There is an underlying reason why you find it relaxing to shoot up water for an hour, find that reason and fucking address it. It's not easy, it's hard, like most things in life that are worth doing, it's difficult.

As always, the same thing I tell every addict I come across: you aren't going to listen until you have no choice (read: rock fucking bottom), you need to get new friends, and every day is a battle. But if you go and change, and get healthy, and form yourself into a productive member of this society we live in, then you will have proved a lot of people wrong and that in and of itself is worth it.

Good luck to ya.

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