30 y/o, daily usage for 3yrs, had a nine month break before that(yay pregnancy) and then daily before that since I was 20 or so- I only started smoking heavy at uni.

I hated my break during pregnancy, because I had the worst pregnancy ever and I wanted a smoke every second of every day of that nightmare. My break now, though? I'm quitting for real this time. I feel amazing. Anxiety baseline has decreased, so I don't have this constant high-strung desire to smoke to alleviate it. Depression and emotions are touch and go, but when you smoke to cope with those, that's bound to happen. I'm working on it. I'm more motivated, and honestly...happier. Just in general, I feel clearer about my path forward and how to make our lives better. I had an awful panic attack today, but didn't even think about smoking.

I'm really worried about any upcoming fights with my SO, though, because whenever we fight we usually make up then smoke a bowl. We've both quit for good, though, so I suppose we will find other ways to make up... ;)

I miss my smoker friends, but I'm looking to meet new people with new hobbies. I've started knitting and I have a whole list of things I want to learn, but never had the motivation to. I'm going to make a Star Wars terrarium. Maybe build a solar panel. I've never gardened, and I got some seeds from the local seed library (wtf do I do with wormwood?!). Just random hobbies- Fun stuff.