Women dealing with mental health issues, what is your official diagnosis, and how has your life been affected by your disorder/illness?

Major Depression, Agoraphobia, cPTSD, DD, GAD & ADD.

I basically don't deal. I'm nonfunctional most of the time or low functioning on good days.

I finally started getting therapy after almost 9 years of telling myself there's nothing wrong with me I'm just pathetic & lazy. I actively became more & more suicidal & would self-harm daily. After I tried to kill myself I realised that no maybe I do have a problem.

I've been seeking professional help for almost a year now but tbh I've not found it to be of any use. I keep getting passed around from various hospitals & clinics like a hot potato. There's a ton of diagnosing but very little treatment. I still go but I'm not even sure why I bother. I'm on various meds but I don't honestly feel like they do much.

I have zero social life but that's okay as I prefer my own company. I'm unable to work. I can barely get one let alone hold down a job. I don't ever really leave the flat. I still have to live with my dysfunctional, abusive, narcissistic family. I disassociate for hours on end. I self harm daily. I can't stop thinking about dying. I can't really see a way out of my situation. I don't think I can be helped. I don't see how anyone can help me or how I could get better.

I want to be clear that I'm not advocating for people not to seek therapy or take prescribed meds. I definitely do think they work for & help tons of people. It's just that I've not yet found anything that works for me. I'm sorry that I don't helpful or uplifting to share.

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