When I think about it, I have a pretty good list, but I guess at the top of the list, is losing my father even though he's still alive. Even the short version of this is kinda long. He's developed some memory problems at the start of last year and my sister has alienated him from me and is taking advantage of him. He reached out to me because she was being cruel to him and he was afraid he was going crazy. I talked him through it, but she found the messages (none of the messages she saw said anything bad, just my father asking me not to tell her that he reached out to me for help) and she went berserk on me just from the assumption that we were talking trash, I got texts and serious threats for days that I ignored. Finally we talked on the phone, my dad tricked me into thinking I was only talking to him, had a fight that escalated when she admitted the threats were to get me to talk to her, hung up, rinse and repeat. Every time we'd solve a crisis, she'd find something else I have to apologize for, stuff I did over 20 years ago even, it was absolutely crazy. This went on for several hours that day before I finally said I can't do this anymore. There was one last call, my dad says, she's going to kill herself, the paramedics are here, please tell her you love her. I told my dad that I refuse to lie, I'm not even going to pretend, and if me not loving her means she's gonna end her life, then she actually needs them to be there. I told him I love him and the call ended. My last link to him was on facebook, and she removed me as his friend. I know it was her, she's been posting from his account and her language is totally different than his. I have no way to get in contact with him now and I'm afraid she'll block me if I try to re-add him.