Hey you sound pretty strong to me just even trying to quit. Do you realize how many people refuse to see weed as a problem yet feel the need to get baked 24 7 365 (this used to be me). You have already accomplished so much just be recognizing it's a problem AND your actually attempting to stop! You need to give yourself more credit. Life is always going to have something that makes you want that clutch. My sister died a year and some months ago and I just reasoned to myself I deserve pot because I do not deserve to grief my sister. Do you know where that got me?? Absolutely no where but feeling utterly depressed and afraid out of my mind to be without weed, especially when the waves of grief hit me hard. But I'm doing it man, I'm doing it 14 days today. The waves have hit me and they are REALLY ROUGH. There is lots of screaming and crying and sobbing on the floor and it's absolutely terrifying but I'm not gonna use that clutch. I welcome my feelings and I allow them to come as they come. I don't bottle any of it up and toss it to the side by smoking a bong not any more, nope. I'm so sorry this world scares you to be afraid to go ftm without that clutch, I completely understand we live in a world of bigots, but I promise with hiding your feelings behind weed your never going to get where you want with this. We can be utterly terrified together! But at least we are finding out who we really are. These things that happen to us make us who we are, best to embrace the good and the bad!