The worst feeling during the quarantine

The only money I make is off of tips at cosmetology school, now they are closed until April 6th. Thankfully I got a solid 2gs of wax Friday but I'm stuck in Missouri right now in a house with VERY thin walls and doors. I don't have a car with me so I can't leave to smoke somewhere else. My grandparents live next door and have about 14 security cameras pointing at every entrance, exit, and window so going outside isn't an option really either, they watch their cams like tv. I've tried hotboxing the closet and spraying my blunt spray but it's still making my room smell slightly. My mom is being an asshole and picking my lock to get in my room, 3 times in the last 2 days. Our doors are shitty so you can literally pick the lock with your finger but I can't risk smoking in my room and having her barge in unannounced. I've been having to wait until they all go to bed and smoke in my closet but even then the paranoia of her waking up ruins my high and has made me have multiple panic attacks the last few days. She has the nose of a fucking blood hound. I hope one day she realizes the amount of horrible fucking stress she causes me. I have ptsd, major depressive disorder, and horrible anxiety, smoking is the ONLY thing that has helped me. Therapy made me feel worse, no medications have worked thus far, I don't know what else she expects me to do when she herself has admitted she's noticed a positive difference in me while I've started smoking. I honestly am building a resentment towards her for this.

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