Why do you need your friends to tell you you're ugly? That just puts them in a bad/awkward position.

There are kids around the world who are starving. I read some of your other posts. You being ugly isn't this huge disadvantage. It doesn't matter, that's your baggage and you need to keep it to yourself. I say this as an ugly woman. I have a very handsome and athletic boyfriend, we're together because our personalities mesh really well. I wouldn't be with him if I was always obsessing over my ugliness. Having people like that around would be very tiring. I used to obsess over being ugly as a teenager and it was not a good look. I wish I'd gotten over myself sooner. I'm sure you know tons of ugly people who have large social networks and are loved by others, and have attractive spouses. Look at Rumor Willis. Her face and body are very strange but she doesn't seem to give a fuck. So you forget about it once you've seen her a few times.

Looks aren't everything, they only matter for first impressions. Personality is what really matters. The only reason most people would consider you an ugly person after getting to know you is if your personality is ugly to them. And there will always be someone who finds your personality ugly. So work on being an attractive person personality wise to the people you want to be friends with or that you want to date. Some tips: smile at people, look them in the eyes, and make conversation with people. People like to be treated like they matter. If you ignore them that's rude. Be lighthearted and learn to see their perspectives, be engaged and genuinely interested. It can actually make people attractive even if they were previously ugly. Acquire strong and healthy character traits. Try therapy and tell the therapist you'd like to improve your interactions with others. You're never going to be a model but neither are 99% of people. Being ugly has its disadvantages but obsessing over it is pointless. If you stop caring about how ugly you are it'll probably make you more attractive because you won't appear to have such low self esteem to others. Your life sounds like it's pretty crappy right now so I hope you seek therapy or something, so you can get out of this way of thinking. Good luck, whatever you decide to do.