Your advice makes sense - for someone who isn't struggling with clinical anxiety and post-taumatic stress. I'm less concerned about what my parents might actually do to me (which I know isn't much), than I am with the fact that I have post-traumatic stress and that my messed-up mind is broiling me in a soup of fear. I would love to be able to assuage my fears by considering the "reality" of the situation, as you put it, but the very crux of a mental disorder is not being able to process that. For people with PTS and PTSD, when triggered, their bodies literally believe that the previous trauma is still happening, and they have no way to control their response.

I wrote to see if moving had helped to calm anyone else's fears, rational or irrational. I just want to do what I can to make myself feel better, if it has a chance to make myself feel better. I appreciate your sentiment, but unfortunately, assessing a situation logically and calmly does not give me an instant cure for crippling anxiety and PTS. I wish it did.

And by the way, I am a grown woman who was sexually abused and beaten by her father. I'm glad for you that you could move past your fear of your mother, but I'm not quite there yet.