[WP] You are called upon to make a last stand but there is no chance of survival. Tell me the story of your final moments and what you have chosen to die for.

Not quite a last stand, but this is what I imagined after I read the WP title.

They said I was the first one with this anomaly in 300 years and that I had to sacrifice myself in the name of science because maybe through my sacrifice this world might have a chance of going back to normal.

They said it was the right way, the only logical and rational option for me and that I should be honored to be chosen for such a noble purpose.

But I did not choose anything, you see. I was born this way. I am the misfit. The human that has baffled science since early childhood when I cried because my mom and dad did not gave me enough attention. They thought I was sick and kept taking me to the hospital when I started crying apparently for no reason. So, test, after test, in the end the doctors decided to scan my brain and they found it. My right supramarginal gyrus was lighting up like a Christmas tree when I saw my mom or dad. And they instantly knew it. I had a mutation that disappeared three hundred years ago.

My parents explained it to me when I got older . Three hundred years ago, we were at the brink of extinction as a race. World War III almost destroyed the planet. A few hundred people were left and there was peace. The few people left wanted to make sure there won’t be another war. Ever. And they decided to try to modify their DNA in order to, I do not know the scientific terms, stop people from feeling basically. The scientists did not want to remove all feelings, just the ones that caused trouble: ambition, envy, jealousy. But there was a side effect they did not notice. And when they did they did not care anymore. Because they couldn’t. They have affected that part of the brain that controls empathy. So all human feelings have basically shut down.

It wasn’t such a bad thing though as our society has progressed in 300 years without feelings, as it had progressed before in 3000 with feelings. So it was not all bad. But in time people started killing themselves in really big numbers. Because it is difficult to go on living when you have no other reason to live except that everybody does it. Apparently without feelings, you do not feel joy, sadness, love and more stuff I read about and now I’m trying to figure out which is which. Without feelings there is no purpose to be alive. At least that’s the way I see it.

And they are trying to convince me to donate my brain to science in order to see if they could find the cause that made my right supramarginal gyrus activate, because they have tried it for years in their laboratories and so far they have failed. And I have mixed feelings about this. Because if I die I will never see my mom and dad. I will never see Jane. And even if they do not feel anything for me I know what I feel for them. I love all of them and I do not know how to explain this to them. And I’m also scared. They do not understand fear either…

Oh fuck it, I’m gonna do it. What’s the point in living in a world where nobody understands you anyway? This way, maybe the scientists will figure it out and fix everyone and there won’t be another one like me.

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