These words will never do you justice.

I fell in love with you while I was asleep. After an important conversation, I decided to stay with you in your bed that night. You embraced me and comforted me as we both fell asleep in each other's arms.

And I had never woken up in an embrace so warm and safe. A place I had never been with another human before. Even throughout our tossings and turnings, our bodies looked for each other like lighthouses searched for boats in the night. We always found each other by morning.

It was only a few months later, lying alone in my bed that I began to realize that at 3 a.m. you were the only person that swam through my thoughts. Always I had been searching for a way to belong in this place, to finally accept it and call it my home. But I found that in you instead.

I fell in love with your endless green-blue eyes that everyone always compliments you on. They are so much deeper, behind those beautiful irises you have.

Inside them, are layers of a man with questions unanswered. A constant search. When you opened them for me and let me in, I saw heartbreak and debris, scattered around and left behind from storms that had passed before we met. An endless search for closure and comfort that you and I both shared, for different reasons.

Happiness was hard to come by, you told me. I wanted so much to reach up to the sun and pour its contents into your chest and fill the voids you described to me that ran so deep, even though you burned so bright. Out of all the people I have met in this world, you are the most deserving of happiness. I have tried my best everyday to give you this love, my love. In the hopes that it gives you everything you have deserved for so long, even if I might fall short at times.

I fell in love with the soldier that you are, fighting everyday just for your right to breathe. In the hard times when everything gets dark and muggy, there you are standing so tall, always so I can see you. I do not know of a way to clear this heavy fog, but I can offer some company so you wont have to do it alone.

I fell in love with the selfless person you are who picks up the broken and the lost and helps them see the light, even if they never return the favor. There has always been a drought of places to feel safe where all your misunderstandings and fuck-ups can be forgiven. Where you can be accepted for everything you are and everything you will be by another human being - that kind of trust and safety is hard to come by, but you gave it to those in need. I was privileged that you chose to make me your safe place, even for a while.

I got to experience your happiest, purest smile you had. A smile that made me believe in magic again.

You just stopped everything and looked into my eyes and started grinning from ear to ear, your eyes even smiled at me. I felt so special in that moment because I was one of the few people to experience and see your best smile.

You told me that I made you feel human. And I told you that you made me feel everything again that I once thought I had lost.

The planets aligned when I met you and everything fell into place so naturally, so effortlessly. My love was always incomplete until I met you and now I finally feel like I belong somewhere.

We were so warm just like we said we'd be. Alone together.

But the monsters that crawled underneath our bed managed to slip through the cracks this time. The past has finally caught up with us. I have to grow up a bit, and you have to shed some old skin.

I still believe in you, and I trust you. I hope you still believe in us, even when you are flying high in your mind while you try to figure out a way to beat down your old demons. Even if it means it's without me. Then maybe someday, when the timing is right, we can be warm again, and we can make a safe place together, without the cracks this time.

We are the right people, but met at the wrong time. I will never stop believing that until you do. I hope you find your way home, I hope you find your way back to me.

I'll be here when you're ready.