[WP] Write the letter that you always wanted to, but never did.

Dear Vicki,

On the off chance you come across this, please don't judge. It's been a long week and I have booze in me when I came across this thread, so consider it a cathartic experience.

I know I was a major asshat. I hope by this point you have forgiven me even though I never forgave myself for fucking up our friendship. I liked you for a very long time and it just made the entire experience harder.

I'm still fucked from that whole experience. I haven't been with a woman since, and that was three years ago. I can't even begin to describe how shitty it feels to turn 22 and have nobody to really celebrate it with, but that's another story.

I met your current boyfriend at the coffee shop down town. He complemented me on my shirt and was a really nice guy, so I'm glad that you found someone awesome. In the back of my mind I wonder if there will ever be a time in our lives we get together, but it's probably not going to happen, even if I kind of secretly hope it does.

I see you at Wal-Mart once a week when I have to go get snacks for this club my friend and I started up, but I've never really come over to say hi or anything because I feel like you might secretly hate me. I don't know if you do or not, but I hope you don't. The only reason I think you wouldn't like me is because I'm an insecure prick who still has a lot of issues to deal with before I'm even close to being a functioning person. That's pretty much the reason I don't like myself, but I don't need to talk about my depression.

I hope things are going good for you. Also sorry if you got offended when I unfriended you on Facebook, I still have a lot of rough feelings I need to work out, so I'm sorry about that. Maybe someday I will get better. I hope so.

-Richard

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