Don't compare our lives. My ex wife tried to run off with our son and i had to fight her in court for a year to bring him back. After accruing tons of lawyer fees i am still in debt. She tries to make my life as hard as possible while i try to just be the best father i can. I give him the xbox whenever i have my time with him if we aren't outside making the most of every day. I agree there are many many people, if bot more than the majority of people are better than me at this game i am not that good. I am ok with that. But the lobbies i have been put in are way beyond my means. I haven't gotten one kill or done 300 damage all week. I get killed that fast. How many diamond and pred trails do you see when you drop in. More than 70% of my lobby has trails. I am not at that level. I would just like to play at my level. Win or lose i don't care. I could actually care less if i ever win. Just a kill here and there would be nice.