A year and 8 months on hormones. I've lost hope, and I don't see how it's going to get better

Distraction really. You've got to keep your mind from going there. It's not that you'll be in denial, you have to accept what you're feeling, but you can do your best to not ruminate on it either by heavily distracting yourself. It's important to emphasize distracting yourself in a healthy way, don't try to do 80+ hours of work each week for instance, but maybe find a part time job on the weekends, or pick up a hobby, or start playing a sport.

I get the whole self hatred thing, really I do. I'm really good at it myself (my dysphoria is light to say the least, but I've got other issues too that are more severe). There's no good answer here. You can only push on, use the resources you've been using to help you, and try your best to concentrate on something good or positive to prevent you not from having these feelings, but from not ruminating on them as much.

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