29 years of age and have sought different systems of belief. Buddhism has captivated me in a way no other has. In a life of confusion a personal feeling of detachment with longing to not be. The world has always seemed obscure to me. The question is where to start besides books. How to find those who could guide me or fuel the interest. A bit about myself. A tendency to be frustrated is easy for me. I grew up with parents that fought constantly and a father that resorted to violence in almost every mishap. Sad to say it is all I knew growing up. I have struggled my whole life with anger, as I got older I realized it was not me that was angry but a conditioned response. That thought was the beginning of my healing.
A duality, like in most people, is now in the light. The struggle for right thinking to overcome my anger. I have love and serene thoughts underlying in my anger but it is very clouded. Buddhism's path has been helpful but I know so little about it. Where should I go next?