Well I hadn't used for a few months, got tooo excited and kept smoking puddles till I could feel my heart beat out my chest.
This was about 4 hours before my shift. Stupid me was more worried about just getting high as possible so about 2 hrs 45 mins before my shift picked up the pipe and twisted it till it was time to leave for work. Then for some reason felt like the high wouldn't last my shift, so ate a huge shard.
My mind was sooo spun! When I got their I was doing prep for about 2 hrs, nobody noticed by just looking at me and I'd keep eye contanct when I spoke.
Then when it got busy and it was time for me to get on the line and make food is where it all gave it away for a few reasons. First I my legs felt heavy, this is a sit on your ass you're too spun. So I moved sloow. My mind wad fucking spinning, i'd fucking forget what I was making so move to something else I remembered in the ticket. Got recipes constantly wrong.
But what got everyone that wasn't even nearby me to notice how bad I was fuckin up. Was the strongest smell of ammonia comming off me, it over-powered the food! I wasn't sweating badly from my head, but my arms has soo much sweat it looked like baby oil covered me. My back and front were soo sweaty looked like I went for a dip in the hot tub. I knew everyone knew at this point but we were to busy.
After the rush was when the gossip started flying I had seen it at my first job but there the boss didn't give any fucks. Here there is a no drug policy. People turning to each other leaning over to take a look at me. When I would be by someone they'd make it pretty obvious they wanna take a look at my eyes.
By this point I knew they knew, they didn't know I knew because they'd try acting normal towards me but their eyes had that look haha. I was like whatever not much I can do it this point. Just go along with it then close, go home and sleep then return sober.
Of course it was not possible to sleep all night I was high as a kite. Two hours before my shift I still hadn't slept, so I thought might as well get high so I can make it through the day. I forgot my hydro 10s at home I was going to use them if I came down. Boss would give me tasks that I couldn't fuck up because it was obvoius I hadn't slept. At one point he was teaching me to do something he was crouched showing me what to do and I was standing watching him. Then out of knowhere looks up at me with wide eyes for 10 seconds in silence, I said whats up? He asked are you paying attention.
I later overhear all of the managers and the boss talking about when they should terminate me. I wasn't fucking deaf or as stupid as they thought I was.
I rather they confront me ask if I was high and I would've said yes I relapsed and be honest. But their ways of trying to be sneaky and saying things I can hear that they don't think I can because I'm high made me say fuck it I won't show back up after today.
I went home knowing I fucked up because I wanted to try getting high again after 3 months of anstinence. Been staying high since. And I have a lot left so live it while I can I guess.
Then get back up on my ass and don't fuck it up again. What sucks though is they were the only ones who hires me because they didn't do a backround check. I got 2, 25k warrants.
So really not 100 on what the fuck Imma do. The law knows I'm here because the i've had officers come by and serve me lawsuit papers. But don't bother to arrest me till I get caught with my pants down. That's the real reason why they're waiting, they know I'll fuck up sooner or later and I know that to.