Just made a throwaway for this, and I know it's going to get buried, but I've wanted to get this off my chest.

Amanda,

I'm sorry.

I knew very early on in our relationship that it wasn't going to work out. I definitely just didn't feel the same way about you that you felt about me. We had almost nothing in common. If I'm entirely Honest, I had already been planning on leaving you when you had your accident. But then once that happened, It just kind of moved in a direction where I felt like I was stuck. While you were recovering you just became more and more attached to me, because you needed someone to be there to help you. Maybe I'm a monster, but every day it made me realize more and more how little I actually wanted to be in that relationship.

After a point, you began talking about your lawsuit, and I started to think "well, she's happy, and at least we'll have a some-what easy life", and this is honestly what was keeping us together for the majority of our relationship. The thought that there would be this huge payoff in the end that would make it worth it.

Yes, I'm a horrible person for thinking that. I was just a dumb kid at the time, idk.

But then, one day, almost out of the blue, something seemed to have just snapped. When you started sneaking on to my facebook and blocking my friends because you didn't like them, it made it very VERY difficult for me to even want to try anymore.

I want you to know that I never cheated on you. I had thought about it. At one point, I had even planned to, but I backed out (literally on the way to meet up with her) because I had kept telling myself we had something. and just so you know, it wasn't going to be with her. In fact, it wasn't any of the people you had blocked off of my friends list. for some reason you had decided she was allowed to stay friends with me.

I'd also like to say that from the minute I discovered you were doing that, I had suspected you were cheating on me. I don't know if you were or not, and Honestly, I'd rather not find out. but after that happened, Every day was just difficult. you needed me to explain to you where I was at all times or else there was an argument. I had to ask for permission to hang out with my friends, and even tell you who would be there or else there was an argument. It just wasn't worth my time. I couldn't take it anymore.

And for a while, I felt really bad about trying to use you for that lawsuit money. I did, really. At least until you started talking to that kid I worked with. Idk what your intention was there, but every day for months I'd come in to work and he'd tell me about whatever story you told him the night before, idk if you were trying to make me jealous or angry or what, but it only ended up being super annoying.

But I digress.

Amanda, I am very, truly sorry I strung you along for so long. That relationship should've ended after 3 months, tops.